I don't think I can tell you enough how much...

I wanted to kick the nurse in the face last night!! Oh my heck so last night I started having really bad contractions about 11:45pm and I could barely walk anywhere. It really sucked. Roger was timing the contractions for me and they would be anywhere from 4-10 minutes apart and lasting a anywhere from 2-5 minutes. So we time them for 2 hours and at 2:00am we arive at the hospital. They checked me in and the nurse checked to see if I was dilated and she said yes you are at a 3. Okay so Roger and I are excited at the time because we're both just ready for me to be let loose of this misery. The nurse tells me to go walk around and so I do and then come back and get on the medicine ball and bounce around. She does an ultrasound and says the head is down and then comes back and checks again to see if I have dilated anymore and then says "do you feel comfortable going home?" This is when I about threw up. Oh yes I did do a little of that during this whole time as well. Go home?? How could I even think about that. When I was in labor with Ethan and dilated at a three it was only a couple more hours when I had him. Then I was trying to remind myself that they had me on the PIT with Ethan so it was a little different. I told the nurse I guess I could go home and so Roger and I are in the elevator and I just start crying. I am so sick of hearing things are going and then hearing "you can go home". Yeah so my midwife called today and talked to my mom and told her that I was actually only externally dilating and not internally and that she wasn't happy the nurse told me that. Yep can you believe it? If she would've just been honest with me then I would've felt better about going home!! My midwife also said I should try and induce it if the contractions are really hurting me because she agrees that Aliana is going to be a big girl. My mom had a couple photo shoots today so tomorrow morning we are going to get me going on the treadmill and going up and down the stairs because that seems to get my contractions going more. I'm going to hurt but we all just want this baby. Roger started school today so I feel really bad because he had to drive to Spokane this morning after being up all night with me. He is such a good husband to me. I miss him so much when he's away. The things we do for our families!! Okay I think I've done my complaining for the night!! Wish me luck....